all has ended

today the baby no longer have a hearbeat.. and sekarang dah keluar dari ibunyer.. i donno why, but somehow just now abah called my sis and she told him that the baby is with her by her side! alhamdulillah she's not crying and speaks like nothing happened.. tp apa yang ditunjukkan tak semestinyer ape yang dier rase kan..

so, we'll be going to putrajaya again today.. and akan kebumi mayat after asar.. insyaAllah.. walaupon awalnyer rasa mcm tanak pergi sebab mcm tak sanggup nk tgk baby tu.. but pikir-pikir balik better go just to be with all the family, walaupon my other sisters are there tapi kalau abah dengan mak takde situ, it will not be enough..

Someone to save you

Patience
Took you for everything
Looked like a diamond ring
and you wore it so much longer than made sense
Apathy in disguise
Crept on you like a spy
Hurt you in ways
You can't describe

Back to the start now
I wont let you go this way now

Honesty
Is what you need
It sets you free
Like someone to save you
Let it go
But hurry now
Theres undertow
And I don't want to lose you now

All right
Sit down and spill your heart
Lets start from the very start
Cause i can see by your eyes
You're wasted
Your energy comes and goes
You taking your time, you know
Nothing can change what happened,so
back to the start now
i will let you go this way

Bridge
Chorus

Now
Now
Oh my
Look at your bright stars fade so
How much can you take?

Chorus

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na (x14)
I said to save you
Save you
Save you
Someone to save you
What you need is
Someone to save you

Sesungguhnya solatku, Ibadatku, hidupku, matiku adalah kerana Allah Tuhan sekalian alam.

my family got a shocking news yesterday, my sister punyer kandungan is having a problem.. tali pusat terkeluar.. and the baby is already in the 25th weeks of development.. and is still alive inside the womb (there's a heartbeats)

doctors at putrajaya are not able to do anything about it, they say that kalau bawak baby tu keluar pon for sure the baby akan mati... so they decided (this will sound very cruel) they will have to wait for the baby to die and only then they will take the baby out... thats a very depressing thought don't u think? ntah la, tak tau ape nak kater.. now at the time of this posting, the baby is still alive in the womb and having normal heartbeat walaupon waterbag dier dah pecah.. the baby is still fighting to survive.. MasyaAllah, this kind of thoughts really killing me!

Ya Allah kuatkanlah iman dan semangat kami, khususnya keluarga kami menghadapi dugaan Mu ini..

i got nothing else to say about it, really i cannot do anything right today.. trying to not to think about it and it's really hard.. just imagine how would the mother feel when the time comes for her to see the baby for real.. it will must be very devastating for her.. 

P.S: Setiap kejadian atau kemalangan di dalam hidup ini ada hikmahnya...insyaAllah

Food & Activity

08.07.2008  Tuesday

morning - herbalife shake

noon - skip meal

afternoon - nasik with ayam goreng n sayur2an

not much activity on this day, just going to the office and back.. bicycle kat ofis pon x bawak balik.. drive to seri iskandar at night.. does that count as a calorie burning session? mmm

fever

woke up at 4am today with a fever.. dah lama x demam, tetiba plak demam pagi2 buta tadi.. semayang subuh pon mengigil2 sebab sejuk.. alhamdulillah, after a few panadol tablets i'm feeling quite well, just having a minor headache right now.. rasa macam nk ponteng je keje arini, tp entah mana dtg kerajinan mengatasi segalanya plak today.. nk kata banyak keje, x la banyak sgt.. just keje yang menensenkan je (malas nk cerita pasal my work problems)..

aha, i read something from yahoo news yesterday, it was about people going on diet will be more likely to have better result when they record their daily food intake and activity.. so, i think maybe i should give it a try... for now it have been 2 month since i've been giving myself a "hard time".. though i never weight myself but right now i'm feeling great.. my diabetic still remains, hopefully it hasn't gotten worst(pray).. was thinking of getting my medical checkup to get the proper dosage of my insulin..skrang ni i just take my metformine.. itu pon kadang2 malas nk makan.. yeah, i know i never really took care of my well being... but hey, it's never too late to change kan..

"Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives."

Addicted - Saving Abel

best lagu ni... music dier very the best one lo.. walaupon lyrics dier kureng sikit..



I'm so addicted to
All the things you do
When you're going down on me
In between the sheets
 
All the sounds you make
With every breath you take
It's unlike anything
When you're lovin' me

Oh girl lets take it slow
So as for you
Well you know where to go
I want to take my love and hate you till the end
It's not like you to turn away
From all the bullshit I can't take
It's not like me to walk away
Walk away, walk away, walk away

I know it is gettin' rough
All the times we spend
We try to make this love
Something better than
Just makin' love again
It's not like you to turn away, turn away
All the bullshit I can't take
Just when I think I can walk away
Walk away, walk away, walk away

Repeat Pre-Chorus

All the sounds you make
With every breathe you take
It's unlike anything
I'm so addicted to
The things you do
When you're going down on me
All the sounds you make with every breath you take
It's unlike anything
When you're lovin' me

I cannot make it through
All the things you do
There's just got to be
More than you and me  

All the sounds you make
With every breath you take
It's unlike anything
I'm so addicted to
All the things you do
When you're going down on me
All the sounds you make
With every breath you take
It's unlike anything
I'm so addicted to you
Addicted to you

lolcatz

more cat pictures

aduhai...

from the star online..

KUALA LUMPUR: Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor who is the wife of Deputy Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak will not sue Malaysia Today editor Raja Petra Kamaruddin for alleging her involvement in the murder of Mongolian Altantuya Shaariibuu.

“I have nothing to say. I have given my statement to the police and that’s it,” she said.

Asked if she would sue Raja Petra for defamation, she said she did not want to address unnecessary issues because she had other bigger things to attend to for the people and for the nation.(*note1)

Asked why she would not address such a serious allegation, she said it did not matter.

“If you are innocent, what is there for you to address? I am not a politician and I am not running for any post. I’m just the wife of a politician,” (refer note1) she said Tuesday during the Asia-Pacific Conference on Children’s Book Publishing.

On whether it was true that bomb expert Col Aziz Buyong’s wife, Norhayati, was her aide, Rosmah said she was not.

“She was not my ADC (aide de camp). She was just an officer who did all my programmes. She is not with me now. She had a promotion and is back with Mindef (the Defence Ministry),” she said.

In his June 18 statutory declaration, Raja Petra alleged to have knowledge that two lieutenant colonels and Rosmah were present when Altantuya’s body was blown up on Oct 19, 2006.


P.S: sejak biler la org2 in the politic arena nk tolak publisiti?

uniten menjana professional?

sekarang ni semua org pasti sudah mengetahui tentang kes laporan liwat oleh saudara Saiful Bukhari (SB) terhadap Dato' Seri Anwar Ibrahim (DSAI). laporan dibuat di dalam ketika suasana panas politik negara sedang panas dengan kes sumpahan suruhanjaya RPK-Rosmah dan secara tidak langsung berkaitan dato' seri najib. adakah ini satu konspirasi? di dalam pembacaan saya melalui pelbagai2 blog, SB merupakan seorang mole di dalam PKR dan telah diletak untuk menimbulkan kontroversi bila sampai masa yang sesuai. and apparently this is the perfect timing for them to execute the dirties old-already-done-trick to DSAI. adeh, terskema plak awal2 tadi...

from around the blogs, they say that how could DSAI could have sodomized this 23 year old perfectly healthy guy where as DSAI is 60yrs old and have been suffering from back injuries. (makan ubat kuat kot..huhu) it's not only that, DSAI is not dumb la.. he's not going to jeopardise all his work all for the sake of this guy, kalau ye pon dier or anybody nk buat perangai camtu, would he'd just go and do it overseas? he does spend a lot of time overseas kan... hurmm...

whatever it maybe, saiful bukhari is an ex-student..and today in utusan keluar gambar dier pakai topi uniten on the front page! waduh2... mula2 tergelak gak and then when some sense come to my mind, kesian plak kat budak2 uniten.. secara tak langsung ia akan mencalar kredibiliti kepimpinan mahasiswa uniten.. btw, did i mention he's a vice president of the student representative council (MPP)?erm.. and his result is far way off the kononnyer tahap kelayakan untuk bertanding MPP (got this from the news).. camne tu ek? if i remembered well, they ask for CGPA of 3.0 and above to qualify to be a candidate...(biler dah ada pencalonan tu, paham2 la ye unitenians..sure menang..) does politics got it's hands on this guy? does his connections with the ministers got anything to do with this? or maybe he's just a kaki bodek to get to the top and hanya nk jadi giler glamer? giler glamer..emm.. now he really does get what he wants aite..huhu

new info (2nd July) - this guy sebelum jadi MPP result dier maybe ok, lepas jadik MPP baru perangai tukar and result jatuh merudum...

well, to all unitenians out there, semoga bersabar dengan ape yang terjadi. semua yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnyer.. ape yang tercalar ialah kepimpinan uniten dan bukan quality graduan.. he's a dropout kan, not a product of uniten.. so, be chill about it.. harap2 kepimpinan uniten would be more careful in order not to be influenced by these types of people.. to me, pasa usia sebegini la somebody boleh disuntik dan diajar semangat kepimpinan, jadi institutsi kepimpinan pelajar ini mestilah dijaga dan dipupuk dengan baik dan tidak menjadi mainan politik kepentingan individu semata-mata..

erm.. enough writing for today i guess.. got a lot of work now.. release tension jap menulis nih..